Dear Diary

So, I was living in Utah for almost two years and just moved back to Ohio on Easter. I moved back because I was feeling completely alone in Utah after I broke up with my boyfriend and my friends and family encouraged me to come back. I was expecting to be able to see my friends and hopefully that would make me feel less depressed. Well, I am being treated like I'm 10 and barely allowed to see anyone. I was allowed to go grab coffee one night with my friend Chad-which turned into a disaster. Chad has a girlfriend but that doesn't change the fact that I have a crush on him. He talked a lot about how he would never cheat on his girlfriend. Yet, when he brought me back to his parents house to let me sleep, he started fooling around with me and then cock blocked himself eventually by saying he couldn't go any further. On one note, I was impressed that he stopped but he stopped after he already cheated. Anyways, it made me feel kind of fucked up because he wasn't looking for anything more than sex with me and I still want to date him.